Anonymous said: I don't think that Cole guy is searching for Dean with good intentions because if i do recall right Jared or Carver said that he (Cole) will cause Sam and Dean some problems.

lost-shoe:

dustydreamsanddirtyscars:

Dear anon,

I admit when the first spoiler about the mysterious character came out, I immediately assumed he’d mean trouble and would be looking for Dean to ~utilize his new demonness to his own advantage. Just like Crowley seems to have planned (given his actions in S9 and the spoiler about him suggesting a business relationship with Dean that Dean may or may not turn down - hell, if it’s about running hell, I could imagine Dean just saying “naaa, it’s my throne now”). And that seems to not work out all that well for the king, so…

More recent spoilers make it seem that he might rather be a Benny-esque character, but human. Of course he could be after Dean for revenge or whatever and therefore causing problems. But he may also be posing problems for a completely different reason.

Whatever he turns out being (though of course I have my hopes set on some possibilities more than others) I remain excited and curious about the character. How about you, dear anon? :)

I have to wonder whether this new Cole character, if indeed has bad rather than good intentions, is going to serve as a contrast to Sam’s search. Several times, last season especially, Dean has been framed as a tool or weapon to be used eg Magnus, Crowley. Now those instances were directly concerned with dean having the mark of Cain and I believe Carver stated Cole’s intentions were not related to that. BUT I have to wonder, we have Sam searching for Dean the person, his brother who he loves, maybe this Cole individual is searching for Dean the hunter, and by that I mean searching not who he is (even though they share a past) but rather what he does (or can do). And perhaps these two searches are further symbols of choices Dean must make or conflicts he is facing, between humanity and ‘other’. Just some thinly thoughts.

The tweets Travis Aaron Wade sent out does make it seem he rather is playing a ~bad guy. *crazy btw how the feelings on one character can change so fast based on just some tiny words someone send out into the world :* I very much like your idea. That was my initial thought, that Cole is seeking out Dean, because he wants to use him for his own advantage whatever it may be. There also lies the possibility that he is looking for revenge for something Dean did way back in the day (maybe he hooked up with Cole’s gf? - though for my taste this would be VERY meeeeh). But in general the idea of why people are looking/~hunting for different versions of Dean so to speak, I find interesting, it fits to the whole being loved just cause vs. being ~loved because of… that Dean has been struggling with all his life.

If Cole was another character pulling Dean towards the darkness it would certainly contrast nicely with Sam, who is (probably by going way dark himself just in differeing ways to Dean) trying to pull Dean towards the light.

Question to me really is right now, is he hunting Dean the way Gordon was hunting down Sam with the intention of killing him because of whatever happened back when they met and him realizing that now that Dean is something supernatural it just gives him all the more reason to go through with it or if he is searching for Dean, because he needs Dean’s help/maybe wants to thank him, because back in the day he saved his life or whatever or if he wants use Dean for some questionable quest. Either way at the moment - and especially after Wade’s tweets - it seems he’ll be a rather grey character, so in that vein a bit like Benny really…


obsessionisaperfume:

dustydreamsanddirtyscars:

deangirl:

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Ahhh, thank you for searching it up, dear! I guess the “Cole as Dean’s son”-scenario is officially not going to be the case then… :/ But he could still be a friend from Stanford or Sonny Era. :)

Either way I continue to be curious about the character and well the Colette could still come out to play… ;)

Welcome on board Travis Aaron Wade! Better buckle up!

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Yes, multiple episodes seem to be the case. Hmmm, there are so many conflicting things we hear about the character. Looking for vs. hunting down Dean, is he truly human or is he a ~monster looking for revenge, good guy or bad guy? I am curious. Curious and intrigued. :)


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Ahhh, thank you for searching it up, dear! I guess the “Cole as Dean’s son”-scenario is officially not going to be the case then… :/ But he could still be a friend from Stanford or Sonny Era. :)

Either way I continue to be curious about the character and well the Colette could still come out to play… ;)

Welcome on board Travis Aaron Wade! Better buckle up!


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Anonymous said: I don't think that Cole guy is searching for Dean with good intentions because if i do recall right Jared or Carver said that he (Cole) will cause Sam and Dean some problems.

Dear anon,

I admit when the first spoiler about the mysterious character came out, I immediately assumed he’d mean trouble and would be looking for Dean to ~utilize his new demonness to his own advantage. Just like Crowley seems to have planned (given his actions in S9 and the spoiler about him suggesting a business relationship with Dean that Dean may or may not turn down - hell, if it’s about running hell, I could imagine Dean just saying “naaa, it’s my throne now”). And that seems to not work out all that well for the king, so…

More recent spoilers make it seem that he might rather be a Benny-esque character, but human. Of course he could be after Dean for revenge or whatever and therefore causing problems. But he may also be posing problems for a completely different reason.

Whatever he turns out being (though of course I have my hopes set on some possibilities more than others) I remain excited and curious about the character. How about you, dear anon? :)


Anonymous said: I think the Cole thing made it pretty obvious that the new character is a guy. He this, he that - and not about Dean, about the new character. I don't think he'll be his Colette, either, could just be a name coincidence..

Dear anon,

yes, of course I’d say the chance that Cole turns out to be a woman is less than 1%, but if they wanted to hide a realy “WTF”-moment I could imagine Carver consciously talking about Cole as a “he”. It’s a wild theory and not so likely to be the case, I know. :) I just made a list of what popped up in my head.

I still think Cole turning out to be Dean’s kid from a past fling or Cole thinking he is Dean’s kid would be very interesting, but like I said before I am not sure they’d truly head down that route… I rather think they probably wouldn’t dare.

Also: yes, the name could be coincidence and used consciously to mislead us, but you have to admit that the similarity is kind of striking, isn’t it? :)


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mytharc4dean:

dustydreamsanddirtyscars:

*slaps self in the face* I never thought of the simularity between Cole and Colette, but I did wonder if this person would play a part in helping Dean become human, which actually I think would be great because it wouldn’t be about shipping but Dean!

*gets some ice so it won’t hurt so bad from slapping yourself in the face and hugs you* I was feeling the same way btw when my brain decided to dump that realization on me. :) The more I think about it, the more I think the character might truly play a pivotal part in Dean wanting to be human again. Cole turning out being his son would advance the whole thing in a very different direction, but it would advance Dean nonetheless. I mean, in the end it always came down to love. Maybe it’s as much the love from your brother, your best friend as the love you start feeling for your kid (of course this is all just highly speculative)  that does the trick….

Takes the ice and winces thank you *hugs back* I wondered if it could be Dean’s son too (oh the wank that’ll bring/ducks for cover) - they haven’t announced the casting yet and so we don’t know how old this Cole is. Either way, I would not be surprised if he plays some part in Dean saving himself, returning back to human!Dean even if he isn’t the one with the yellow crayon speech at the end. This is a guy who is from Dean’s past…who Dean could have an emotional attachment to, and is most likely a civilian and so therefore he’s likely to represent humanity more than any other character on the show…plus if he is an old friend (or more?? if the writers could be so bold) what if he is from a time when Dean wasn’t hunting with Sam, Stanford era maybe, then this Cole might know things about Dean that neither Sam nor us the audience know, he might know a different Dean to the one we’ve all seen, and be able to get through to Dean with their shared memories, reminders of who Dean used to be and with less of the baggage that both Sam and Cas carry from over the last few years - therefore less judgement and self interest. It may be with the help of these shared memories, from an old friend back when Dean’s life was a lot simpler, that Dean takes the path to save himself.

I would find the scenario of “Cole being Dean’s son or Cole thinks he’s Dean’s son” very compelling, but I am not too sure, they’d dare to head down that route. I also think that the character in some way will play a pivotal part in Dean’s decision over staying a demon or becoming human again, but of course that really just a feeling since we basically know next to nothing now. :) Them not wanting to give away the actor is interesting in that vein as well. It could also mean though that he will be played by someone, who was on SPN before… A lovely anon send me this message here, which suggests that “Cole is Dean’s son” might be out of the game.

But I think Cole as Dean’s Colette even if not in a romantic way could still stand. The name is just so obvious to make the connection, which may also be why it is not the case. ;) But hey, it’s fun to spec. :P

Agreeing with everything else you say and I would love it, if it turned out to be an old friend from Stanford era and Carver shedding more light on how that time was for Dean. It’s such a headcanon inducing topic tbh, so I would love it, if we got more info. :) Or, you know, I could imagine Dean knowing Cole, because Cole was also at Sonny’s when he was there or something like that. If it was, they had the chance to get Dylan Everett back for a sort of flashback, which would be awesome since 9x07 “Bad Boys” was such an important episode in S9 when it comes Dean and Sam and how they understand one another or really figure out how little they actually know about one another.

And lastly, yes, I would love it if all those character combined manage to get Dean back and Cole (if he ends up turning out to truly be a decent guy, who reminds Dean of his past, which was more ~carefree even when human - meaning he’d understand that he doesn’t need to be a demon to enjoy life) playing an important part in it as well.


Anonymous said: What does it mean to break the Winchesters codependency to you? Wondering because i read your recent season meta.

Good Morning dear anon,

I am sorry it took a while to respond. I guess you were referring to this piece here?

If so, when I am talking about „breaking the co-dependence and moving their relationship to a healthier level“ I mean that both Winchesters are maturing in the way they relate to one another. It has nothing to do with making them care less about one another – that is something I often see being mixed up. The relationship Sam and Dean share will always be a special one. What these two have endured together and the fact they are the only members of their family still alive – at least from what we know – makes it impossible for this to be different. Still I think no one can deny that both Sam and Dean went to greath lengths and did more than questionable things in order to save their sibling (and judging from spoilers Sam will do some really shady stuff that may compare to Dean letting Sam be possessed by Gadreel). All of Carver’s season imo worked har don addressing how twisted and toxic the Winchester’s relationship has become. Though this doesn’t change anything about the fact that whatever they do for the other one is out of love and care – but it’s also out of fear, revenge or a wish for redemption that ends up in one them wanting to sacrifice himself. And that’s just not how it should be. Deeply caring, yes. But I think it’s time for both brothers finding away for themselves to to figure out who they are and how they want to define themselves outside than being „a hunter“ and „a brother“. It seems in S10 everything Sam said to Dean over the course of S9 („But don’t go thinking that’s the problem, cause it’s not“, „You swoop in and think you do more good than bad, but you’re not“, etc.) will be put to test and might probably make the audience and himself question how honest he has been with himself back then when saying that in comparison to what he does now (which we don’t know what it will be yet – maybe he teams up with the Rowena witch? Maybe she’s truly Crowley’s wife or mother. God, it would be glorious). Basically what I am hoping to see is both Winchesters finding a place in their relationship in which they are just as close as they always were, but also not in the immediate danger of getting themselves killed to save the other, because he doesn’t think he should be alive. They need to start defining themselves as more than just „the brother of“, they need to learn to let go without it translating „giving up on“ for them, they need to stop tying their purpose and whole reason for living to the other person (again: I can absolutely understand how it came to this given their history) while disappearing themselves completely. Yes, to me „breaking the Winchester codependy“ means making both brother much stronger in the end, because they have become more aware of their identity. Both maturing and giving the other one space (without one of them thinking the other having interests not tied to them means the other doesn’t care about them anymore). In my opinion it would make Sam and Dean much stronger. On their own as well as a team.

Gosh, this got rambly… :/ Did I manage to somehow explain what I mean? I realize it’s actually quite hard to put into words what is logical inside your head. ;)


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In the night so still
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In that house on the hill
Looking out for love
Big, big love
You said that you love me
And that you always will
Oh you begged me to keep you
In that house on the hill
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I wake up alone
With it all
I wake up
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Anonymous said: I just wanted to tell you I had the same problem with my stuffed animals as a kid! I always felt guilty if I didn't hug all of them. You are not alone!

Dearest anon,

"Feeling guilty because of not cuddling with all your toys the same amount of time when you were a kid"-people unite!!! :)

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