Note to self: don’t drink white wine of you haven’t eaten anything all day

The weekend is almost here…

…I can almost smell it in the air and taste it on my tongue. Two delicious days off after working 10-to-12-hour-days for 12 days straight without a day off. God, I am so ready for it! :’D

Friends of mine are playing a concert tonight, so I’ll most probably won’t be back online today!

Wishing you all a lovely start into the weekend! I love you!!!

Aug 29

Anonymous said: \ (^_^) / Hello beautiful person! If you receive this it means you make someone happy! Go on anonymous and send this to 10 followers that make you happy, or you feel sommeone needs some cheering up. If you get some back even better!

Awwww dear anon,

thank you! That’s just what I needed while sitting down at my desk at work and checking in on tumblr via phone.

*hearts and kisses*



Everywhere now reminding me
I am not who I used to be
I’m afraid this has just begun
Consequences for what I’ve done

Originally this was supposed to just be Demon!Dean, but when I drew in his eye, I liked it, so I decided to try my hand at an animated gif.

God, I love your art so fricking much.

Random Thought of the Day Regarding Demon!Dean’s Song Choices

What if Demon!Dean sings Lady Gaga’s “Born This Way” in the scene Jensen talked about at Comic Con?

I mean, I guesss it would count as a song that doesn’t particular ~fit to what is played in the kind of bars I would expect Demon!Dean to wind up in, which would be rocker bars and stuff like that.

But “Born This Way” would actually be so awesome in many ways, because even if only looking at the lyrics of the chorus - really the title alone would be so freaking beautiful meta wise when you think about how Demon!Dean says “We are the natural order. That’s the way it was set up” and him really being new-“born this way” when Crowley placed the blade into his hands - it would relate so awesomely to how Jensen described Demon!Dean to be: self-confident, loving himself - everything the true Dean sadly never managed to achieve, which is why it is so endlessly tragic for me that in order to love himself he had to become a demon. ;___;

Here’s an excerpt of the lyrics of the chorus:

"I’m beautiful in my way
‘Cause God makes no mistakes
I’m on the right track, baby
I was born this way
Don’t hide yourself in regret
Just love yourself and you’re set
I’m on the right track, baby
I was born this way, born this way
Ooh, there ain’t no other way, baby, I was born this way
Baby, I was born this way
Ooh, there ain’t no other way, baby, I was born this way
I’m on the right track, baby, I was born this way”

Not only would it make Dean’s transformation appear in an all more tragic light, because the lyrics support true growth while Demon!Dean is still pretty much in the decline, but also because it would nicely relate to the questions:

- Who am I?
- Who do I want to be?

Basically it would be about the big questions of identity and in relation to SPN destiny and free will as well, which was a major part of S8 and S9 as well with “I did what I had to”. Furthermore imo it makes the discourse of “What is and what makes a monster” all the more interesting, because:

Are you born that way or is it life and experiences that turn you into on and are maybe the monsters with fangs and claws much less monstrous than those that come with a pretty face?

This is of course all mere crazy spec since we don’t know the actual song, but the idea just popped up in my head and I felt it to be so fitting I had to write it down. Sorry! ;)

lost-shoe replied to your post “When you write something…”

Oh God tumblr is a git! :( *hugs you tight*

Right? :) *hugs you back*


Typewriter Series #884 by Tyler Knott Gregson

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Text for Tired Eyes:

Take care of yourself. It’s up to you to keep your heart
beating and your lungs filling and your legs running long
past when you should have found your way to shuffling off
this mortal coil and starting fresh.  Greet Death running
and jumping and dancing with her, throwing kisses like promises
while she waits to carry you away.  Don’t make her bend or scoop
or hoist or strain her delicate hands under the weight of your
tired soul.  Meet her with a smile that only old age can create.

Love.  Promise me that you will love.  It will shake your skin
and rattle your bones and the sheer volume of butterflies inside
will threaten to lift your stomach to your throat.  Love.  Don’t 
think of the why or the how of the what if and just love.  When you
think, if only for a moment, that you’re loving enough, you aren’t.
Love until your eyes are cried dry and your arms shake from
squeezing so tight.  Love because you cannot not love and
because it finishes all of the pieces in you that would otherwise
stay that way.  Love because it’s the answer to the question
you’ll start asking one day.  It’s the answer to all the questions
you’ll ever ask and the reason you are here, wherever here may be.


N° 8 in the Series "Favourite SPN Shots"
5x16 "Dark Side of the Moon"

"You son of a bitch, I believed in…"

#This will always be one of the most powerful Cas scenes to me #And one of the most heartbreaking ones at that as well #It’s the moment Cas loses all his faith #Because his father has seemingly stopped caring a long time ago #It’s the moment that everything he believed in and he hoped for #Starts crumbling down #And falling to pieces #It’s the moment reality sets in #In the most painful way #To me it will always mark the moment Cas truly and completely chose humanity #And then there is Dean #Witnessing how much this weighs on Cas #An angel who is at the end of his rope #Who lost all hope #Who learnt the hardest way that his dad is another deadbeat dad #And Dean knows so well how that feels #Because I am willing to bet that in that moment #He remembers all the times he tried to call his dad but didn’t get through to him #All the times he felt let down #Just look at the sadness in his eyes #In both their eyes #Their will never come a day I will not be endlessly emotional about this scene (via dustydreamsanddirtyscars)

Wow emotional thinking!

For me - I was mostly ‘yes FINALLY’ about this, because, well, I didn’t like the idea of the Christian god being such a big deal within the SPN universe (and tbh I found Cas’ faith in him somewhere on the scale of dull-embarrassing… wasn’t a big fan of the ‘search for god’ thing - it’s the one Cas storyline I’m actually not fussed happened offscreen). So when god turned out to be a ‘deadbeat dad’ and not the all powerful, benevolent deus ex machina I was worried S05 was gonna make him and Cas’ (to me naive/childish) belief in him was destroyed… I was cheering a little inside :p

So much to the YES about Dean witnessing Cas lose faith in his father though! I love the parts that emphasise Dean and Cas’ similarities :)

Oh I actually completely agree with you. I was very wary of the whole god thing as well. But I love that it gave us this scene, because well… the similarities are heartbreaking and I love it! :’)

Nooooooooo! -gives you all the tea and cookies and hugs-

Thank you, sweetie! Did you get my reply btw? *hugs back*

When you write something…

…and really put much thought into it and it’s gotten quite long and tumblr just decides to delete the whole thing and tell me

"We seem to be having technical difficulties. Maybe try again later" and I want to throw my freaking laptop out of the window.

Gosh stop being so cute you make me cry hon *kisses your nose* I thought about you too hon and I listened to your songs a lot Colin still loves your lullaby ssmmoocchh

Asdfghjkllll :’) Awwww, I should write a new one and send it to you. It’s about time he gets an updated one! :)

oh jenny you´re so sweet thank you i missed you so much *kisses your nose* love you more

:’)))) *hugs you and never lets go* I seriously have been thinking so often. I miss Mone! ;____; And now you’re back! <3 <3 <3 <3

MONE IS BACK!!!!!! *fangirls for eternity*

I missed you so much, dear!

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Aug 28

Off to work

Laters lovelies

<3 <3 <3