Jul 29
I, the sacrifice
I, the corner to be cut
I, the empty hand.

"Living in a fantasy but it’s way too far
But this kind of loneliness is way too hard
I’ve been wandering, feeling all alone
I lost my direction and I lost my home” (x)

When I’m Alone // Lissie

"I turned my back
You were gone in a flash
Like you always do
You’ve always gone off
Somewhere else

And when the phone rang
And I thought it was you
And I sprung like a kid
Who just got out of school
But it’s almost
Always never you
Never you

I scream like a child
My insides went wild

When I’m alone with you, you make me feel, you make me feel
When I’m alone with you, you are the one, you are the one

When I reach out and I only grab air
And it kills me to think
That you never did care and it’s hopeless
You’ve always run off somewhere else
I’m throwing a tantrum
Why are you such a phantom

When I’m alone with you, you make me feel, you make me feel
When I’m alone with you, you are the one, you are the one

When I’m alone with you, you make me feel, you make me feel
When I’m alone with you, you are the one, you are the one

Reminds me of home
When you’re around me
Next time you leave
Don’t go without me

No, don’t go, no!

When I’m alone with you, you make me feel, you make me feel
When I’m alone with you, you are the one, you are the one

When I’m alone with you, you make me feel, you make me feel
When I’m alone with you, you are the one, you are the one”

451 plays

Suddenly has to think of…

…9x22 “Stairway to Heaven” and Tessa screaming to Sam

"Your brother’s a psychopath, Sam!"

while Dean is talking to him on the phone.

Oh Tessa, if you could see the man (who most probably would have gone with you when you met him for the very first time to collect his soul if Aazael hadn’t interfered) now… :’(

What lengths is Castiel going to go to, to survive this upcoming season? [x]

So I am not the only one thinking that Cas might indeed give the last remnants of his grace trying to cure Dean, right? I mean, we’ve been talking about this sceanrio for ages, but hearing this from Misha himself adds a new sort of ~gravitas to the theory.

(Source: deansams)


"A lot of the stuff I actually shot with him, he was in aswell, as an actor." - Misha on being directed by Jensen in 10x03. [x]


*heavy breathing*

Anonymous said: First of all, thank you for the incredible reply :) but, if you don't mind, I'd like to discuss a point a little more. While I totally agree with that Dean's confrontation with Sam was indeed like a game of good old cat and mouse chase, I //do// think that Dean was going to kill Sam. Sam was a second away from being a dead man. If he hadn't ducked //just// in time that would've been IT for him. Also, when you notice the force of the blow, by looking at the impact it left on the wall (1/2)

It was pretty powerful. Absolutely no messing around with that one. It may or may not have been his intention from the beginning. You talked about this certain arrogance that’s in him now and he could’ve been there to satisfy that, as well as to make sure that Sam wont get in his way again, as you already stated. But has started off as ”fun and games” definitely didn’t end up that way, for both of them, but a lot more where Sam’s concerned. Um, just let me know what you think. (2/2)

Hey dear,

awesome that you had the first part saved just in case tumblr would fuck up! :) Now your message indeed makes much more sense to me. :)

And of course we can discuss some more, you know I am always up for some meta and spec or just good old flailing. ;)

I am kind of re-modeling my impression and opinions and ideas of that scene on a daily basis and the more info and spoilers we get. I still think that Dean didn’t really want to kill Sam, even though everything we see is pointing against it (I really don’t know why I keep thinking about it this way *sigh*). Therefore, if I am putting my headcanons aside for a moment and just look at the scene again, I have to agree with you. If Sam was just a tiny bit slower he would have been hurt badly, maybe mortally. Of course Dean trying to kill his brother serves as the ultimate indicator for how far off the reservation and how far off from True!Dean Demon!Dean is, because Human!Dean NEVER would have killed his brother (though he certainly did some very shady stuff in order to save his brother while fully knowing the repercussions of his actions may have the very same result like Sam’s wall being broken or Gadreel burning him out).

So in that vein, I guess you could say Dean coming back to the bunker to hint Sam down may have been a way for him to cut all ties with his old self of which his brother was an integral part.

That being said: The question really is WHY Dean came back in the first place, because he wouldn’t have been found by Sam unless he wanted to be found, so whatever the reason for his visit is, it might be more tied to what Sam did to find him and maybe less about Dean himself.

If we wanted to think that Dean set out to truly kill Sam one particular scenario won’t leave my mind and it’s tied to the story of Cain and Abel.

In 9x11 “First Born” it’s a huge and important moment is this one here, where Cain says him and Dean are very much alike, but Dean argues that he didn’t kill his brother.

Maybe the whole Dean/Cain and Sam/Abel is now setting off??? Either way it is interesting to keep in mind, because the sneak peek scene is the complete turnaround to what Dean said in 9x11 and just contributes to how Jensen said that Demon!Dean simply does not care about anybody. Not his family, not himself, not the car. No one (see here, here, here and here for examples).

Either way the whole clip grossly establishes that Sam is outmatched and Demon!Dean lets him feel it in any way possible and especially he lets Sam know, that nothing that used to mena something to him means anything to him anymore.

Anonymous said: Heya, body-language anon here :) YES sooo excited, there are no words. *squealing* Jensen is such a good actor and those choices he makes are awesome. I really like that he himself was directing the first time he was demon!dean, so it's really like 100% what he wants to do and how he sees Dean as a demon, wich is awesome, because no one else knows Dean better than he does. So i'm heavily looking forward to how we see demon!dean and I'nm sure it will be very very good

Hey there dear body-language-anon!!! :)

Agreeding completely, Jensen is very good at these subtle things, though I also have to admit that I think sometimes he isn’t even aware of what he does, because when he is Dean, he doesn’t refelct on his movements, etc. but rather just completely seems to slip into him like into a second skin. So yes, there is no one, who knows Dean better than Jensen. Though I think since he is so ~close to him, he sometimes isn’t aware of some stuff, because he is unable to look outside the box. If you know what I mean… :)

Also agreeing that it is kind of awesome that he really had the chance to set up the tone for Demon!Dean with his directing, etc. I cannot wait either to see all of it unfold. I think it will be heartbreaking, tragic, sad and just downright scary in equal measures. :)

Your metas are awesome, just sayin

Aww, thank you, dear! *hugs*

I should really continue writing…

…the second part of my “Hellatus Meta Madness”-meta, but I am getting side-tracked by thoughts and emotions on Demon!Dean all the time. And the fact that the meta deals exactly with the transformational aspect from human to demon isn’t exactly helping either. Ahhhhhhh…

Jensen on the tragic side of Demon!Dean (x)

You know, I really love that we’ll see this side of Demon!Dean as well. The tragic and sad part about his transformation and not just the scary part, because in the end, that’s what this character is most about - he is a product of a string of tragic and sad events. I mean, I love that Dean finally does what he wants without caring what others think, but at what expense? This characters is about showing how all of these things Demon!Dean does - being carefree, enjoying himself, etc. - are things Human!Dean could have embraced the very same way. And not alone, but with his friends. The tragic part is not Dean being violent and scary but that there is seemingly nothing left of who he used to be and who he is at his core, that he simply doesn’t care anymore and is running towards the edge of the cliff with arms wide open…

Anonymous said: Honestly all your spec and meta and head-cannons are all that's keeping me going through this hiatus :)

Awww dear anon,

I am glad you like my crazy specs and thoughts and meta-ramblings! :’)

Messages like yours make the hiatus a lot better as well.

*hugs and kisses you*

<3 <3 <3

zoegetsabout said: Hi Dean Winchester is losing the spoiler tv poll please can you vote and reblog one of my posts on it there's only about an hour left. thanks :)

Oh god,

I am probably too late now, hm? :/

Only now got back online. Is still time?

If so: Lovelies, let’s all go vote for Dean!!!


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Anonymous said: Hi :) I hope it's okay to talk to you about analyzing and speculating stuff - I always like your view on things anyhow, i've been watching the trailer like anyone else a hundred times now. I know we all think demon!dean is hot as hell per se, but I feel there is a lot of body language going on. It IS kind of seducing. The way he speaks, and moves. Most demons we know do this kind of intimidating with sexual behaviour. So actually I wonder if this also might be a part of demon!deans behavior.

Hi sweetie! :)

It’s always okay to talk to me about analyzing and speculating and the birds and the bees and Jensen’s longer hair or Misha’s laugh. :)

Absolutely agreed, Demon!Dean carries himself very different to Human!Dean and particular last season. Jensen made it a point in some of the interviews at SDCC 2014 as well and shared a bit how Dean walks differently for example.

It is very apparent for example how his shoulders aren’t slumped, instead he is walking tall (can you say it like this? o_o) shoulders squared, self-confident. There is almost a certain rhythm not only to the way he moves, but also talks (his voice is different to Human!Dean’s as well). And yes, I personally feel like Demon!Dean has a lot of physicality to him that shapes our impression of the character and I would def sign the paper saying that Demon!Dean is also using his body in a certain way to make his opponents uncomfortable or scared. Dean has always used his body as a wepaon, not caring whether he got hurt in fights or whatever. Now he cares even less about this stuff.

And maybe it’s just me, but especially when there is the close-up of Dean’s eyes going black and him saying “Do it!” there very much is a very seducing, almost sexual undertone to it. The way he rolls his tongue at the back of his teeth for example and the smile just add to that whole vibe. It is indeed something we have seen demons do, act in a sexual manner. I personally always interpreted it with Freud and the id. Demons are very much the id to me. the subconscious, the dark urges, the sex drives. And of you think about Demon!Dean as Dean’s id overshadowing hsi ego and superego it really fits with Demon!Dean acting and moving in a sexual manner.

I really dearly hope so that this sort of aspect will be handled well and really just subtle, because especially the sexual aspect in relation to intimidation and fear is just extremely triggering and risky and might in fact have the potential to be not only highly problematic but just downright dangerous…

I am hopeful though that they’ll handle it with care in case they should draw more from that particular apsect of Demon!Dean. Tbh I’d prefer seeing Dean as a party animal, drinking and sniffing and swallowing whatever substance he can get his ahnds on and singing in a bar from the top of his lungs and not givign a damn about being booed off stage than have his sexual adventures explored in-depths. Though I do understand the reason it is thematized. My problem isn’t Dean sleeping around no matter if with guys or girls, it is the point of consent that makes me a bit worried and that is why I hope we won’t see as much in that regard.

In general: Hell yes, excited for S10 with all my heart! :)

How about you, dear?